Kaching: £2100

Salaam,
Alhamdulillah, back safe and settled in blessed Loughborough.

I met this brother Nazeel Azami in Birmingham a few months ago, mashaAllah, he’s a nasheed singer under the same record label (Awakening records) with Sami Yusuf. Cool no? Anyways, I got to briefly chat to him, he told me how he was criticized for choosing the nasheed path for it is seen as a very weak form of Da’wah. “What’s important is your niat brother”, I replied.

That statement from his critics proved more wrong than ever yesterday when I youtube’d one of his songs called Isharaa. I have to thank him one day inshaAllah.

Upon the start of the new academic year, I’ll be receiving £2000 starting allowance. I halfheartedly agreed to give my mother a tiny fraction of it, with suppressed grumblings and ongoing thoughts of why didn’t I give her less.

Come yesterday, I was randomly listening to Isharaa and reading the lyrics, subhanAllah, the words really affected me when the song went

Who taught the mothers of the world
To love us the way they do
When all the trials unfurl ,
All they think of is you

I remember brother Nazeel saying he used to sing this to his mother all the time before she passed away recently. Kesian.

Astaghfirullah, I am miserly with my own mother. The day before I flew off to Uk, she didn’t even think twice in buying me a new laptop when I told her I need a new one. Imagine how many hundred thousands have she spent for me in sincerity over a period of my whole life. And here I am, tight fisted with a mere amount of £2000. Allah has only given me a taste of money. How will I be when I get a job in the future?

Why am I still attached in this dunya? Why am I miserly with my own mum? When in Al-Baqarah: 215, Allah clearly tells us to give a fraction of our wealth to our parents, family, orphans, the poor and those who travel. Notice in the ayat that parents are stated first.

I thank Allah for always giving me a lesson when I’ve wronged in the strangest ways possible. May Allah forgive me.

Salaam